Hey y’all! Sorry for the lack of a post yesterday. It was a rough day and I was exhausted but today I am going to try to make up for it. Hopefully I will get two posts out today but if not there is always tomorrow. Lol. Flying by the seat of my pants, the way life moves at times.
So, today I’ve got to get some stuff off my chest. Hope. Fuck hope. Yup, I said it.
This quote CANNOT be truer! I completely understand why the only thing left in Pandora’s box was hope and how it screws us over! This does tie into the whole idea of letting go but let’s really talk about hope.
You have hope and you create these AMAZING scenarios in your head because of hope and then it RIPS you apart because it either doesn’t happen the way you pictured it or it doesn’t happen at all. It happens in ALL aspects of life too.
- Relationships – you start talking to someone new, you get the butterflies, you hope they text you and so forth. When it doesn’t happen like that, you are a flipping mess and you have anxiety attacks. Sitting by the phone, hoping that they will text you and when your phone goes off, it’s your mom. Yup, thank hope for that crap. Or when you have been together forever and you are hoping for the next step but instead you get a big fat nothing. Who created that horrid little dream? Hope.
- Career – you interview for a new job and you sit there anxiously waiting to hear who they have decided to go with and you get the call that they chose someone else. Who built all those wonderful thoughts up in your precious little head to be let down? Hope.
- Life – anything that you hope for doesn’t usually come out the way you want it. Matter of fact, it rarely does. But you have hope to thank for that garbage.
I get the other side of the argument, “without hope what is the point of life?” But with hope life let’s you down a crapton. It makes you dream the biggest of dreams and brings them crashing down. It makes you second guess everything you have done. It makes you vulnerable. It makes you human… Sometimes hope is a horrid thing but sometimes it is the only thing you have left.
So, here’s to hope. May it help me the way I hope instead of crushing me the way it normally does.
Sorry for the sullen post y’all. I just needed to vent. Have a good night.
– ♥ Lindsey